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Saturday.

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Trash Talking.

I feel tired, angry, bitter, anxious, pissed off, like a horrible person, ugly, and rageful lately. So fucking disconnected. I feel like I’m hungover when I haven’t even been drinking.  I didn’t think this was possible.  I can barely drag … Continue reading

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…uhhh?

I found my old college essays today.  Triggered by my old intellect in ways I can’t explain.  It’s like there should be an argument here.  A flaw in this girl’s logic but there isn’t.  The only imperfection is that lurks … Continue reading

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Life and Things.

My first air plants came today! I bought glass vials from the Tim Holtz Idea-ology collection a few weeks ago. I’m nervous and excited for reasons I can’t explain.  I heard these babies are survivors but I want to treat … Continue reading

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Creativity and Reality and Loops and Childhood

When I was very small I had the ability to create these elaborate worlds within reality.  It all went well beyond imaginary friends, as I have always been a bit of a loner.  Now, that I’m older I realize that … Continue reading

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WOW!

Everything has changed dramatically lately.  It’s insanely amazing.  Ironically, I finished Mama Gena’s book last night.  It’s incredible.  I don’t even know who this me is but I’m definitely down with getting to know her.  I don’t feel like writing … Continue reading

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Explosive Emotions and Welltimes.

Inspired by Mama Gena’s chapter, “Partying With Your Inner Bitch,” I have been conjuring up these explosive emotions.  Subjectively, I’ve seriously gone at.  Damn, I can be rageful but powerful.  I’ve discovered too how close these emotions are intertwined. I … Continue reading

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Love and Hate.

Love and hate, I’ve always heard there is a fine line between these.  I’ve experienced it in relationships but until recently I’ve never seen the connection between these two.  My goddess, it’s my love of pleasure, of beauty, and of … Continue reading

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Beyond the boa.

I bought  Mama Gena’s School of Womanly Arts : Using the Power of Pleasure to Have Your Way with the World on Kindle not knowing really what to expect and … WOW (in a good way!).

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Freedom and Power.

Turned down an opportunity the other day.  Literally, in my head, I saw the words, “NOTHING GOOD CAN COME OF THIS.” Amazing, just amazing. I’ve been thinking about happenings, power, and freedom. Discussions have provoked thoughts of past discussions.  I … Continue reading

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